From Doing to Being

I'm sitting here, concentrating so very hard, trying to say something of value. Value is a fickle thing, for I do not know what would be valuable for anyone. Writing just to have written seems a bit pointless. Still, words are inside me and they somehow want to come out. To what end, I do not know. I have to walk through this in total blindness, but ultimately, so I have been told, everything boils down to oneself. Perhaps this is just a string of therapeutic blurbs that I send out into virtual space, for others to either read or delete. It is almost a question of "why am I here?" - It goes deep within me and in all love for myself and others, I cannot come up with a witty thing to say, nor with a wise one that hasn't already been said.

I decide instead to just flow with it, I decide that all I truly have to do is go about this as empty as I possibly can, for every time, I try to come up with a theory, it seems rather ridiculous and after all, most of the times, my theories for myself are but smoke and dreams. Then, I am facing again the task of letting everything go. They are all preconceived ideas. It looks like it is time for me to get spiritually naked so to speak in order to let that which wants to be here within me just be that which it is, without my conscious knowledge.

This, rather than setting myself a beacon that I follow, a hypothesis that I have to somehow prove to myself, I change course. I switch from my more comfortable spot of power (doing/masculine side) to the place of love (being/feminine side) and know intuitively that I will not let go of all power, for that I cannot do. My whole life, my essence brought the wind of power. It is now time evidently to let go, to surrender to embody love in addition to power. Its not all too foreign, but the passivity of it is quite unnerving for one as myself.

I wish to give expression to my wind of power by just running and dancing, it feels like it's time to celebrate - at the same time, I want to just curl up and go to sleep, join myself in my own dreams. This is quite a tension of opposites and I experience both simultaneously. No matter, I do understand by going about it just one step at a time, the correct step you know, yes the one that presents itself to me at any given moment. I am in this state of zen where it is ok not to take a step and it is also ok to potentially take a step. Words do fail me. I cannot truly explain how this experience of my essence plays out into my reality and that is alright as well.

Solfeggio Frequencies

As a musician and painter, I have come across a phenomenon. As a composer, I was always been left unsatisfied. I have created some music that others found beautiful. I found it beautiful too, but I knew full well, that what I had heard in my inner ear and what I was able to compose were not the same. It always left something of a bad taste, a sense of "lack" or "not quite". As a painter, I let inspiration flow through me and the results were paintings that felt real, they felt like they were truly a part of me, my essence and the results were very dear to my heart. Beauty, they say, is in the eye of the beholder and it is so. However, certain vibrations, certain frequencies affect us all in the very same manner.

I have since come across the Solfeggio frequencies, which are said to access, harmonize and heal DNA. I do not know if these claims are real. It doesn't matter to me. Here is what I see in my inner eye when the sensory crossover between ears and inner eyes happens, when I play the sounds from the youtube video below. I see an explosion of colors and shapes and as the sounds continue, I begin to see colored fractals. They wander, they move, from one to the next. It's quite beautiful really. Fractals, in my understanding, are what the fabric of life is all about. There is a sacred geometry to them and they are forever manifesting their pattern. It's ongoing, always in motion and never stagnant. It is that sensory crossover and the clearly noticeable changes in my energy fields and chakras when I hear the Solfeggio Frequencies that lead me to believe that there is something about them, that it is good to spend some time listening to them.

It is, so I believe, by natural Divine design, that these frequencies are separated by the number 111 from another. There are surely more sacred mathematics that can be derived from these numbers, but I will leave that to a nerdier brain than mine.

I only wish to share this because it has touched me deep inside. These notes, played in this way evoke a deep sense in me that I already know these frequencies. They are so intimately familiar and I have a deep sense of "home" when I listen to them. That is all I know at this time. I will endeavor to let the sounds do what they do within my system and see what comes of it. I don't endorse them just yet, because I have not enough experience with them, but to me, a song composed with those frequencies comes infinitely closer to what I hear from beyond the veil in ways of "celestial music" than anything that we can produce on the Western musical scale.

Signs you Have Ascended

1) Your heart no longer hurts when you encounter fear.

2) Pretty much everything that interests everyone you know bores you   unfathomably.

3) You look around and say, "What next?"

Shared with Love and Laughter from Archangel Michael

Mad World

Don't take this too seriously ! - Instead of writing a blog post today, I am skipping out to have a walk in the mix of Spring sunshine and scattered showers.

The Impact of Realitites

Sometimes, a person will adjust their reality to make it cushier, to make it easier to bear. It so happens, that our minds are rather clever. They may suggest and make us believe things that aren't exactly true. I have done this numerous times and I see other people in my environment do this very thing. I think that this form of self-deception does not happen with the intent to harm anyone, rather it seems to be a mechanism of self-protection. Sometimes, the truth of our actions, deeds and intentions is too painful to embrace. Sometimes we want to believe ourselves to be better than how we have obviously behaved, thought or done. It is a natural mechanism that has pretty far reaching consequences however.

The truth has a signature that runs through every situation. It is an energy flow that can be perceived. When I recognize it for myself in a situation where I have created a deception for myself and projected that outward, I feel very compelled to just eat the humble pie and fess up to "duh! I've done this wrong, I can do better and I will endeavor when I get my very next chance." Such is the stumble, fall, get up and try again method of this Earthly experience - at least for me.

I have had the beautiful lesson to look at what happens when a deception, a delusion is perpetuated. The one who is trying to hide a misstep is creating this new reality that not in alignment with the truth of what actually happened. The person who has created that reality is trying to reinforce it by telling it over and over again. He or she is thus seeking the approval of those around him or her, in order to make the delusion real. I've pondered over what would happen, if this approval was not forthcoming any longer. If the person would still find approval elsewhere, he or she would undoubtedly slip away from my reality and keep on experiencing his own creation, continually reinforced by those who reinforce it. The imprint of that deception will be eventually accepted as "real" and anyone who challenges that will run against a brick wall.

There is a different possible outcome and that is, if that person is seeking approval from me, and I do not give it and keep that person in my heart with open acceptance that everyone is allowed their very own reality, be it truthful or not, instead of slipping away, there may be that one moment where a question comes my way. This is more likely to be a question of seeking approval in the form of: "I'm right, no ?", which creates the opening for me to speak up and share what I see to be the more truthful situation. I have to wait for this situation however, I have no right really, to dabble in another's reality - unless... yes, there is an exception. Unless the delusion, the perpetuated lie that has been accepted as a reality by the other, has a direct negative impact on my child. As a mother, I feel that I have not only the right, to bring truth to this issue if it affects my kid, but it is my irrevocable duty to stand up for my kid and help heal the situation, for by remaining silent, I would give silent approval for a lie to be accepted as real, with all the consequences involved. That to me would be like being the liar myself.

Triumph

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How to Treat a Reality

It almost looks to be a natural consequence to the last two blog posts, that I feel the drive to share my experience how my perception of others' realities has changed. In the past, I would pay lip service, my mind had embraced the concept that everyone has their own reality. I was quite comfortable in this understanding but feel that after the blog post  "Unity Consciousness and Realities", I have gained a much deeper understanding what that really means to me. Furthermore, with this expansion in awareness, I am experiencing the ripple effect of what this state of consciousness at this moment shows me. This ripple effect goes quite deep.

Not only do I understand that everyone has their own reality in this new and more profound manner, I understand without even thinking about it, that by dismissing another's reality that has been shared openly and freely, I am trespassing. I am also trespassing, if I take on another's reality as mine. Furthermore, I am trespassing by trying to share my own reality in a manner that holds an expectation that others would take my view point. Even by blogging today, I realize and am fully aware and comfortable with the understanding, that although I am merely giving my drive for sharing my reality an avenue of expression, I hold no expectation on how it is received. There cannot be any expectation any longer, for I would then be trespassing. With trespassing, I mean stepping out of alignment with the Creator.

The new consciousness has such far reaching consequences that I am slowing way down with how I treat other peoples' sharing of their realities within myself. I cannot help but experience the desire, that eventually, everyone would come to this place of consciousness where trespassing on the fabric of realities becomes literally impossible anymore, but I am at the same time ok with the place where anyone's consciousness is.

One place where the sharing of realities shows clearly how boring things become if I deny my own individuality, my own reality. This place is called "consensus reality" ... I've been intuitively distancing myself from consensus reality, and share this reality only in some very basic ways with the consensus "out there". I have over time intuitively known not to follow the trends, but instead put my focus on sticking with my own heart, dance my own jig. I have experienced many sideways glances - well, yeah, attacks too and some things in between. No matter, my dance in my own reality is pretty strong and anchored. I did have huge lessons that taught me not to accept another's reality blindly. Those lessons were tough, but I am incredibly grateful for them, for they make so much sense today. The viewpoint I hold today is one that fits this experience, this epiphany so closely.

I have my reality, you have yours. Today, when I share mine, I have no expectations any longer. When you share yours, I will possibly share with you, but it will never become mine. However, and this I find to be the most important point of today's musings: I will not be able to violate the fabric of your reality any longer by imposing my reality onto yours, not even by comparing my reality with yours. Your reality is as sacred as mine. Your reality IS your essence, projected outward into the world of manifestation and to trample on that in any perceivable way is simply impossible anymore. In that same understanding, I still bravely share my reality, with those who wish to take a glimpse, because I perceive it to be my soul's nature to share and expand, to learn and discern, and with each sharing I offer an opportunity for anyone partaking in my sharing to honor and respect the fabric of my reality, and through that, honor the energy of my essence.